Interesting horoscope read

The FBI  has apparently gathered data supporting the horoscope signs and their relationship to criminal behavior.


https://wegoastrology.wordpress.com/2014/01/05/fbicriminality-zodiac-signs/

"The signs are divided into four different categories as we know of course : Fire , Water , Earth and Air.

The fire signs are Sagittarius , Aries and Leo .

All of the three, Sagittarius has the largest number of criminals and is the most difficult to be captured, Aries is usually the most heavily armed , but actually the most dangerous of all  the fire signs is Leo .

The air signs are Libra , Gemini and Aquarius

Libras have the heaviest criminal record in relation to the other air signs and are usually are armed and very dangerous. On the other hand, Gemini often involved in crimes of fraud , while Aquarians usually commit crimes in order to revenge .

The Earth Signs are Capricorn , Virgo and Taurus

This category criminals arrested almost normally . Taurus is the most temperamental and therefore dangerous, Virgo is also usually heavily armed , while the criminal record of a Capricorn has a bit of everything .

The water signs are Cancer , Scorpio and Pisces

Cancers have the vast majority of criminals among all the zodiac signs and is also very violent , while Scorpio and Pisces are also quite irritable .

According to the website of the FBI, Cancers are the most dangerous criminals of all signs , followed by Taurus in the second position . Relying more dangerous Sagittarius come fourth and Aries , followed in descending order Capricorn , Virgo , Libra , Pisces , Scorpio , Leo , Aquarius and Gemini last in the list since their crimes are rarely associated with violence , but mostly frauds and scams .

Cancers are mostly passion killers . Kill almost normally and leave some distinguishing marks on the body of their victims to sign their crime .

Taurus usually involved in money laundering and usually act alone without accomplices .

Sagittarians are crooks and thieves , but rarely harm the victim unless the danger of their own lives.

Aries usually hired to do crimes , while Capricorns are mostly involved in organized crime .

Scorpios emerged the most sadistic and murderous sign, while Virgos are usually burglars or hackers . Libras are steeped in corruption , while Pisces involved mostly in crimes related to drugs.

On the other hand Gemini are not particularly dangerous and are usually associated with financial frauds and thefts bloodless.Unlike, Leos usually involved in criminal activities to gain fame and recognition , so do not deal with petty crime . Finally Aquarians are hackers and specialize in deception ."

It is an eyeopener.  So much rings true on what I have observed my whole life.  I have only recently gotten back into astrology, and started some tarot studies.  

It will be a long tortuous journey forward...to my own future.  Without him.  

The pain of being married to an Autist

I had hoped, by this time in my life..age of 55...that I would be settled down.  In my future life with my new second husband.  That is sadly...not to happen.
I have NEVER .....experienced previously...dealing with such bizarre behavor in another person.  Especially in some one who professed to lve me so much.
Fraud, deceit, lying, rinse and repeat.

I have learned much, since December 14th, 2015.  The day it was confirmed that my husband was actually cheating on me with another woman.   Willingly.  And had handed over to her $10K.  Like a puppy following a bone.  It has been seriously pathetic, watching all of this transpire.

So, after the emotional trauma, I started to research.  Research WTH was going on with my spouse!  The naivete, the gullibility.  The extent of the lying and deceit.  The extremes he has went to conceal it all from me.  The sneaking around during his working day....taking time off from work to meet her at close by hotels and one residence.  I am appalled by his behavior and lack of consciousness.

I started my research with looking up the words "gullible & naive".   It took me all over the internet, through many different paths and rabbit holes.  My search led me to Autism, allegedly High Functioning Autism.

Spouse-has told me though the years, how he is unable to interpret people, and their facial expressions.  How he has always had severe difficulty with communication.  How he has always struck out with women.   He has shown me his low self esteem, although not admitted.  He has exhibited many of the symptoms of autism.

However, I am not going to bring it up to him.  There is NO cure. NO medication nor counseling to remedy this sad brain disorder.  It is a brain wiring disorder.  More than likely occurring during gestation.

So, I also went on to run astrological charts on him.   They merely showed me that all of those same very negative traits, were also in his chart.  Being re-enforced and underlined and replicated in so many different areas of his life.  He pegged him to a t...a Capitol T.  It was almost scary.

So, with what his astrological chart shows me, duplicated with those exact same bad behaviors brought out by the autism, and more brought out by his childhood filled with illness and emotional incest by his parents.   It has shown me an ugly side to the man I am married to.

My only hope, to keep my sanity....is to divorce him.

Alone

It has been so very difficult, coming to grips with the fact that I am in a failing loveless marriage.

 Coming to the realization that my husband is more than likely un-diagnosed autism.   And all of the baggage that goes with it.  The constant obsessions and lying.  lying about things that shouldn't even need to be lied about!  Just for the sake of his bottomless need to control.  To control what information he shares about his life!  Like, I am merely a hired house keeper.

Coming to terms that he will always be a cheater.  He is obsessed with always having a "project" woman on hand.  A woman he can feed new lines to.  Control her with love bombing and stalking.
Control her with his financial handouts.  All because of his low self esteem and male ego.  The compulsion for him to be a Knight in Shining Armor.

I work my way patiently towards eventual separation and divorce.  It takes time.  I need to take care of some necessary things first, before I jump ship.  I dare not even mention the word divorce yet.  He is more inclined to just pack a bag and walk away, if I do.

My heart is done being broken.  I have come to terms with my failed marriage and my future without him.  Or any other man.  It is time once more to be alone.

Cold Rainy Days....

It's a cold rainy day, here in South Carolina.  It fits my mood.
I stand by the wayside, watching my husband cheat on me with another.  It concerns him not, that he is throwing away our marriage.  Our Relationship.  The love he professed he has with me.
It is all fake.  He is putting the other woman before me.  Before me, his wife.  And used to be Lover.
Now I am merely a legal hindrance.

Of course, he denies everything.  the last time I asked him about her, was back in June.  But his actions have told me otherwise.

I have proof now. Legal proof in black and white. The locations, days and times he stayed with her.

All of it.

Awesome blogs....

In my brief 11 years of actually reading blogs.....I am constantly amazed at some that I stumble across.  They encompass all levels, all topics, visual and intellectual.

I have myself just a brief blog writing history.  I started one on a social site back in 2010, chronicling our move to our recently purchased property out in the country.  It was a mess.  I took over 1,000 pictures documenting its metamorphosys into a comfortable and livable home.  I wrote about our progress and posted pictures.

That was pretty much my blog writing history, till I attempted to write earlier this year on here.  As I have been going through much emotional turmoil, I have started and stopped, and deleted.  I did have an additional earlier blog just about country life out here in the deep south.  I just finally deleted it this year.

Maybe I can keep up with this blog.  I see it as a form of outlet and healing.  I really need to be doing it.

Journey

New blog.  New title.  Hopefully, soon, a new life.

I resort to using blog as therapy for now.  I need some sort of outlet for my thoughts, my ideas, my frustrations,

Some things good.  Some things not so good.  But, writing helps a tattered soul.
Even if it is only fleeting.

I have done blogs before, but on a very limited basis.  Now my life has presented me with yet another challenge.  I had hoped putting roots down would be permanent.  But life shows me that it has not.

So now I must be more patient, get more schooling, find employment, find new housing situation, and once again pull up all roots and re-invent my life.

This has NOT been easy.  Being tossed aside by a man who claimed he loved me.  He went from hot to cold, in an instant.  While the whole time lying to me on the surface, trying to make me believe all was good in his delusion.  But that is just it.  It was HIS delusion.  Not mine.  I saw the inconsistencies in his words and actions.  And then I saw proof.

Now, a year and a half later, he chooses once again to follow the same path.  He was not sincere in the least when he told me he was sorry he had hurt me.  It was just another lie.

So, here I am once more.  Trying to do blogging.  Maybe it won't be for public consumption.  I do not know.  But I have a feeling I need to write this somewhere.  A blog is as good as anywhere else.