I resort to using blog as therapy for now. I need some sort of outlet for my thoughts, my ideas, my frustrations,
Some things good. Some things not so good. But, writing helps a tattered soul.
Even if it is only fleeting.
I have done blogs before, but on a very limited basis. Now my life has presented me with yet another challenge. I had hoped putting roots down would be permanent. But life shows me that it has not.
So now I must be more patient, get more schooling, find employment, find new housing situation, and once again pull up all roots and re-invent my life.
This has NOT been easy. Being tossed aside by a man who claimed he loved me. He went from hot to cold, in an instant. While the whole time lying to me on the surface, trying to make me believe all was good in his delusion. But that is just it. It was HIS delusion. Not mine. I saw the inconsistencies in his words and actions. And then I saw proof.
Now, a year and a half later, he chooses once again to follow the same path. He was not sincere in the least when he told me he was sorry he had hurt me. It was just another lie.
So, here I am once more. Trying to do blogging. Maybe it won't be for public consumption. I do not know. But I have a feeling I need to write this somewhere. A blog is as good as anywhere else.
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