Cold Rainy Days....

It's a cold rainy day, here in South Carolina.  It fits my mood.
I stand by the wayside, watching my husband cheat on me with another.  It concerns him not, that he is throwing away our marriage.  Our Relationship.  The love he professed he has with me.
It is all fake.  He is putting the other woman before me.  Before me, his wife.  And used to be Lover.
Now I am merely a legal hindrance.

Of course, he denies everything.  the last time I asked him about her, was back in June.  But his actions have told me otherwise.

I have proof now. Legal proof in black and white. The locations, days and times he stayed with her.

All of it.

Awesome blogs....

In my brief 11 years of actually reading blogs.....I am constantly amazed at some that I stumble across.  They encompass all levels, all topics, visual and intellectual.

I have myself just a brief blog writing history.  I started one on a social site back in 2010, chronicling our move to our recently purchased property out in the country.  It was a mess.  I took over 1,000 pictures documenting its metamorphosys into a comfortable and livable home.  I wrote about our progress and posted pictures.

That was pretty much my blog writing history, till I attempted to write earlier this year on here.  As I have been going through much emotional turmoil, I have started and stopped, and deleted.  I did have an additional earlier blog just about country life out here in the deep south.  I just finally deleted it this year.

Maybe I can keep up with this blog.  I see it as a form of outlet and healing.  I really need to be doing it.

Journey

New blog.  New title.  Hopefully, soon, a new life.

I resort to using blog as therapy for now.  I need some sort of outlet for my thoughts, my ideas, my frustrations,

Some things good.  Some things not so good.  But, writing helps a tattered soul.
Even if it is only fleeting.

I have done blogs before, but on a very limited basis.  Now my life has presented me with yet another challenge.  I had hoped putting roots down would be permanent.  But life shows me that it has not.

So now I must be more patient, get more schooling, find employment, find new housing situation, and once again pull up all roots and re-invent my life.

This has NOT been easy.  Being tossed aside by a man who claimed he loved me.  He went from hot to cold, in an instant.  While the whole time lying to me on the surface, trying to make me believe all was good in his delusion.  But that is just it.  It was HIS delusion.  Not mine.  I saw the inconsistencies in his words and actions.  And then I saw proof.

Now, a year and a half later, he chooses once again to follow the same path.  He was not sincere in the least when he told me he was sorry he had hurt me.  It was just another lie.

So, here I am once more.  Trying to do blogging.  Maybe it won't be for public consumption.  I do not know.  But I have a feeling I need to write this somewhere.  A blog is as good as anywhere else.